Corporate chemistry

I am going to explore more on this in coming days.. Of course there is a strong filter for entries..

Below is a copy paste of a good blog.

Good one leads to progress: individual’s, organisation’s and of the society.
Bad one leads to progress only of the corrupt, immediate boss (the one above u or whoever is playing such a dirty joke)
Means and ways to play are same for both:
1. Divide and rule
2. arousing fear and insecurity
3. not letting unity build
4. keeping the professionals at the lower rung seperate from the higher ones (or keeping authentic ppl with integrity away from one another)

All these above tactics can be used to bring about more unity, better sensitivity gud interpersonal relations when under control (for positive)
Unfortunalty, these are widely used for the wrong reasons of fullfilling envious ppl who themselves may not be ambitious enuf so not allowing others to be and grow.

Question is: What to do in such a situation? Be a shark with the sharks?
Or stay ur ground and stnd up for oneself? And not confirm if ur values dont allow?
If u dont, u r going to be alone, by urself, with ur values and principles and progressive thoughts….If u do confirm to the sharks, then u compromise with ur own goals, somehow.

So, what then….
1. Be positive
2. Out smart them (side-step them)
3. be nice to everyone, respect them (coz even a jerk wants respect)
4. Do the right thing, at the right time
5. Stay ur ground, stand up for urself….in a polite manner
6. in the short term, u may find it difficult. But in the long run, u will benefit
7. let me tell, tht such ppl are more of losers, in the long run
8. Dont (never) compromise on ur health
To my experience, due to these kind of politics, I have left such ppl….. behind me….moved ahead…..and burned those so called bridges.

Am I losing myself?

The fact that there is no entries in this blog says a lot on my current mental state. For the past three months I am almost working non stop without even a single days break. Looking back at the recent 20 days I am much worried because slowly I am loosing all my virtues.

I have worked hard to build certain habits and all it takes just a day or two to discontinue it. Though I am against overworking (That too in a shabby way…) but kept going with it for a reason.But now the reason become NULL and hit a segmentation fault.

The most difficult phase of your life is the one when you feel like your dreams are drifting apart. Though mine is bit difficult to pull my way totally it cant be ruled out.I want to record certain important phenomenons of life.

Every one of us is behind something.. may it be  a girl or a goal..we cant put our brains at work if we dont feel like progressing towards it. That feeling doesnt come just like that. W e need to work for it..as in case of a girl we try to woo her by doing all the odd things;the same applies to goals also.

Here are the things I have lost in the recent past,

1.My morning sessions

2.My late night sessions with my sweetheart (My computer) (OOPS she is unattended for a long time…She is very ill too…)

3.Blogging

4.Toastmasters

5.Word Hunts

6.Mails with froward (Its the driving source for both of us to keep the momentum going on)

7. Nowadays I dont disturb any of my friends with messages (This is the only good habit in the list)

8. My GRE classes

9.Movies (I lost all my vicarious feelings like a hero..)

I slowly lost one by one because of a remote chance of making money for my applications and to help my work.But now time has come to change..I cant lose all this completely.Its time to recover all them.Without those fuels I cant keep running and thats already apparent at the way I am working .

I want to do something before the question turns out to whether I have lost myself?

Adieu 2007!

2007 didnt end quite in a good note for me,it laid me a double flow hours before it wrapped up.One in GRE,I had premonitions of it two three days before it occured,but didnt expect the dip to a all time low….420 ooops I couldnt even accepted that against my name for this bloody exam without preparation. Although not to perfection I have put in 10 months and more than 500 hours for sure and this mark is no indicator of it.

I dont care for the marks and thats what cost me..In the last few days before the D-day  I overtried things (oops! Someone has done it earlier…I did even get a warning from my friend ..). By Friday I knew that I am not going fair adieu to this exam by Monday and that very thought shows how I was down in confidence. I was getting these exam qualms after a very long time….even it might trace back to ten years…I dont remember me worrying about any of the exams after my first unit tests in 12th standard (First lesson -Physics…diffraction..and stuffs like that….Baskran sir…any aktian who reads this should stand up and pay respect for him….).

I didnt get sleep still two on the night before exam;neither i was in mood to get to the books.I was dumbfound(At times like this I feel that I havent been a good human..) I dont want much of that poor day to get in to my annals. But one thing i could say dont let your confidence drift apart for its not facile. It ended up 420/780(770)). I was totally nonchalant to the test during the test after that third question. I have made up my mind to have the battle again even before it ended (Wicked guy!).

I will come up with my mistakes in GRE in a later post.(This post isnt quite rosy to speak on that ….) .I could even accept this blow and i couldnt afford to live with the second one.In a way thats the reason for this one. I was down in confidence and it seemed to me that i didnt have a concrete purpose in life. It seemed as if I had burried all my dreams and they were too remote and out of my reach.Most of the search in my life seems to be abstract and a tough call.

It took me a week to recover and  here I am blogging after about a months respite (I am glad there is atleast one guy to note this….) As I say always this blogging is in direct relationship with one mental state. Fingers go out of control when you start to soliloquize and root some deep refreshing thoughts in to my mind. The second blow was very evident in  a fact that i am not getting off my bed till 7…some times its 8(OOPPS Its something i cant afford to loose…..)

And the fact today I won the battle and had a nice read of “Butterflies and barbed wires” must be an innuendo that I am back to my ways. I would just like to format the dusk of 2007 and dawn of 2008. Good Bye 2007!

In 2008 i am planning to do some of the tasks which i have planned to do a year ago 🙂